In these moments following a phone call or a text message I wish that I had a place I could escape to. A place that I can cry and let it all out. I need to be strong for my kids, I don't want them to see me fall apart - it's in times like these that I have questions. Mostly about the church.
For so many years I have longed for it to be a part of my life as well as my families. Growing up with the church in my life it seemed like it was the only way. I wonder sometimes now.
How, if the church is right, can a family be destroyed over it? When I"m told that the church is the sole reason for a divorce, what am I supposed to feel?
The guilt I feel is almost unbearable, suffocating even at times.