Bittersweet

So after 2 1/2 weeks of unpacking, hanging out, and adjusting to Texas heat...it was time to return to Utah for the Timothy family reunion and to bring Tyler and Cody back. A bittersweet trip to say the least.
I was so looking forward to seeing all of my family, and I mean ALL. It has been years since Rebecca has been back to Utah, and she and I were both returning at the same time. So exciting!
I left and drove straight through with the help of Tyler and Malachi....horrible drive. I got pulled over in Kansas and received a speeding ticket, Yay! But we made it safe and sound -
I dropped Malachi off to his mom - who was so happy to see him, and then took the kids over to Jason's house to have them stay with him for the week. He has missed the kids so much, and they have truly missed their dad. They hadn't seen him for 3 weeks or so, and although they were having a good time in Texas, they were so happy to be back in Utah and with their dad again.
As for me, I was so happy to be back. I stayed with Marianne again, and not on the hide-a-way this time, I got to sleep in a bed! I felt bad, they had had a flood and their house was chaotic! But we had a great time hanging out and I went to work and helped them with some problems and deadlines that were hanging over their heads. They office gang threw me a going away party and invited all of our clients, it was a surprise. I was awarded with a plaque that dad had made and they bought me a new tv. They are the best - I miss working with them all of the time. I didn't realize how much I really enjoyed my job and the people and clients until I wasn't doing it anymore. 17 years is a long time.....
Anyway - the family reunion was fun and the many get togethers were just what I needed. Good quality time with my family, who I would be leaving again! Ugh!! We really did have a good time...and all good things must come to an end.
Originally I had planned on leaving Devin & McKenzie to stay with Jason for 2 weeks...but the cost of the flights was more than either of us could afford, especially with school just around the corner. So that plan changed, but Tyler and Cody said they were going to come back with me for a few more weeks, which made me so happy. But with the cost of the tickets they were unable to come back with me. Oh how I wish I would've known...they spent the week hanging with Jason anticipating being with me longer, and then that didn't happen. I missed out on so much time with them, time I can never get back. The last night of my stay in Utah I did take them to a movie and breakfast and school shopping. It was nice to be with them, they are such amazing boys and I love them so much.
So I had to painfully leave Utah once again....this time was almost unbearable as I had to leave 2 of my kids behind and take the other 2 away from their dad. As much as I was looking forward to returning to Jamie, I cant help but feel complete sorrow. Bittersweet.